Hey guys,

I know I haven’t been very consistent but my mind has been a tornado. I’ve really needed to have a proper think about what I want from this space and what it means to me.

I really don’t want this to be a space that feels whiney, that’s why I deleted my last post, it didn’t feel right to me, it didn’t set the tone that I wanted. As much as I want this to me space where I figure dealing with Bipolar I also want to use it as a place in which I explore my lifestyle or what I want my lifestyle to be. I absolutely love cosmetics and skin care it is such a big part of my self care routine along with exercise and diet. I want to share all of these things.

This blog may start out a little bit chaotic but I will find my groove. I’d also not push myself to write a post everyday because they will be shitty posts. I’d rather put in time and effort and write content that I’m proud of.

Over and out,



Product review| TRESEMME BOTANIQUE Nourish & Replenish Shampoo and Conditioner

Beauty Bulletin and Tresemme South Africa were kind enough to send myself and a friend of my choosing a bottle of their latest product.

The product I am reviewing is Tresemme botanique nourish & replenish shampoo and conditioner with coconut milk and aloe vera. The product also boasts  natural ingredients, lower sulphates along with being free from parabens dyes and silicone. It’s designed to provide car and moisturise Afro as well as Caucasian hair. This product is all about embracing natural, healthy hair. The shampoo and conditioner come in 750ml bottles and retail at R79.99, they are available at most supermarkets including  Dis-chem and Clicks.

So far I’ve enjoyed the product, it has a really pleasant smell and nice packaging. It’s still a little early for me to decide if I like the product or not but so far so good. My hair is pretty damaged from chlorine, saltwater and sun and it has really taken its toll on the quality of my hair. I’m hoping the gentle ingredients and coconut oil will help improve the quality of my hair. I have noticed an increase in shine as well as more definition in my waves, which I love, I want my hair to be curlier.  My hair routine would be to wash every morning then let it air dry with a little bit of argon oil. Some shampoos that I’ve used in make my hair oily over the long-term and leave a gross build up on my scalp, this is what I need to watch out for. The last time I used this brand that happened, to be fair that was about 7 years ago and this is a new product.

I will provide you with a more comprehensive review once I’ve been using the product for a bit long.

Check in soon,


Consistency issues. Blog post 3

One thing I’ve constantly struggled with is my lack of consistency.

I find my thoughts function at two level either in super speedy overdrive or in motion so slow it might as well not be moving at all. So what I tend to do is nothing when the brains not moving and try to cram everything in once I’m in overdrive and I think that makes sense, however the problem is my productivity. I just wrote an accounting test that I didn’t feel good about because I left studying to the last second due to the fact I was trying to catch up crazy amounts of work that SHOULD have been done.

I’m doing a degree in Economics and the workload is not unmanageable, it’s not difficult to the point I wouldn’t be able to cope, in fact this first years course outline is rather pleasant. The problem I have is with my consistency and swinging between the two extremes in brain capacity does not make it easier. both ends are very challenging to utilise the more speedy I am the less I can concentrate on a single train of thought conversely the slower I am makes just grasping a concept nearly impossible. The trick is finding the middle ground and maximizing it. this is often easier said than done, firstly it’s not always consistent or it’s not often there for long enough. What also happens is  anxiety because I know I’m behind can make be feel very overwhelmed and make me want to throw my hands up and say fuck it, fuck all of it and the horse in rode in on.

The anxiety and pressure that I put on myself is one of the most unproductive things I do because it kills me, quite simply it makes me think why must I bother I’m going to fail anyway? I don’t know what I’m doing what’s the point? This is a very dangerous mindset  for me, well for anyone who thinks like that I presume. It leads me down the slippery slope of self-pity which is so comfortable to be in, even just for a little while.

There are ways I can help myself to make sure I’m as productive and as consistent as I can possibly be, I can set my routine and make sure I follow it. As annoying as it is I can’t function outside of a routine which includes sleep, exercise, nutritious food, allocated work time and some time for myself. Currently I’m trying to figure out what works for me and I’m finding it’s not as simple as I think it is. it’s taking a fair amount of trial and error and I think it’s important for me and anyone else in my position to be kind to themselves but being careful about not giving up and falling into the realm of self-pity which is far too easy. If only implementing healthy systems was as easy as feeling sorry for myself.

Basically this word vomit of a post is me telling myself it’s not going to be easy but I can do it. Consistency especially within ones self is so important and I think anyone with Bipolar or any other condition can agree. It’s difficult holding myself accountable when I’m still figuring out what is in my control and what isn’t. I do know my treatment plan needs to be adjusted, I’ve been off of medication for bipolar for over a year and I need external help with that.

I the mean time I can work as hard as possible at accomplishing the small goals that I set daily, one of them being this post. to anyone else dealing with the same thing or anything else, stay strong and there is no shame in admitting you can’t do it all.

Over and out lovelies